One And The Same – Lyrics

Love and Jealousy, We’re one and the same

The deadliest potion when looking for someone to blame

Looking through me like a hollow memory

I’m sitting wondering who did you really want me to be?

You’re thundering eyes, tainted lies, the cold stares

Me positive, even though I’m stripped bare

You didn’t care, buried your head in your phone

As I sat on my own thinking of ways to pick up the tone

I never wanted to go home until then (no)

I never wanted to have to try and comprehend that we failed again

As the rain came down,

Silence in the room filling it up like an unfunny clown

Uh,

Stop to think and frown

I blink and the years have seemed to come right back around

Same place as before but it’s me who’s staring at the door

Contemplating my next movement and thought

Could be crucial because I don’t wanna react and regret

But at the same time I can’t just forgive and forget

Uh, I can’t carry on like this no more

Something’s gotta give like the rich to the poor

So what you wanna do? Power held in your beautiful hands

Heal us or kill us, I hope you understand?

Your finger on the trigger and I’m ready to die

Time to decide if the love is worth the fight

 

Walking on tip toes throughout the house, I did

Looking at my reflection is the mirror I did

Feeling it deep down in my stomach I did

Knowing the cracks were getting bigger, they did

 

I sat down beside you and took your hand in mine

Tried to get you to talk and let me get inside ya mind

Looking for signs, ways I could repair what broke

You never spoke, body language so cold

I want you to know we can get right back on track

This derailed train can get its destination back

And I’m falling and falling into this hole, I look up

No outstretched hand, you weren’t there to help me up

So,

I guess that’s that, I’ll pack my things and leave

Sometimes I sit and still think this is so hard to believe

Sometimes I’ll reminisce the laughs and the cries,

The good times, the memories, everything entwined

And I hope I’m still in the back of your mind

Eyes locked across the room, passion raging inside

A teenage dream now split at the seams

A ‘tell it to your diary’ kinda love

Know what I mean?

 

Walking on tip toes throughout the house, I did

Looking at my reflection is the mirror I did

Feeling it deep down in my stomach I did

Knowing the cracks were getting bigger, they did

 

Time heals wounds but scars don’t fade

When I see you now, sirens go off like an air raid

Don’t know what to say, how to act

Nod my head keep moving or stop and engage in heartless chit chat

I think I’ll keep moving because it’s best for both of us

Two different stories. You know, Love and lust

I couldn’t give you that rush, you couldn’t give me respect

So let’s put an end to a love that’s now dead

 

Walking on tip toes throughout the house, I did

Looking at my reflection is the mirror I did

Feeling it deep down in my stomach I did

Knowing the cracks were getting bigger, they did



Some Kind Of Rest-bite

Slumped back in this seat / wallowing in self-pity
‘Cos the last few years of my life have been shitty
Feeling suffocated / finding’ it hard to breathe
Wiping away tears stained with regret on my sleeve
And I’m all alone / This house makes no sound
Now I can’t hear your footsteps on the ground
My eyes stare blankly at this picture of me and you
Quick swig of this liquor and I’m tearing it in two
Hear the letterbox open / something falls to the floor
Is it a love letter telling me you wanna talk?
Falling over myself to rip it open and read
But it’s just another debt collector demanding I call thee
Does it ever stop / I wonder is there a God?
Then why is he making me feel so unloved?
But I gotta hold on / cling on to the belief
That If I pray to the sky at night then this pain might leave

I look up to the sky at night / Praying for some kind of rest-bite
Hoping’ it’s all gonna be alright / Gonna Be ok
And I can live to fight another day

These cold stares everyday are like needles in my skin
I can’t take questions / the answers are too consuming
My head is pounding and I need a release
I hate you so much right now like that song sung by Kelis
But really I don’t / Fuck I don’t know what to feel
But I thought after you’re torn wide open you’re meant to heal?
Then I got this other shit going on /  I can’t deal with it all
Instead of rising to my feet I just seem to continue to fall
I’m grabbing these pills / pour them into my hand
Glance up at the mirror have a look at the state of this man
Has it really come to this? Am I brave enough to do it?
The bathroom window is open and I throw the pills through it
Fuck that / there has gotta be a better way
I ain’t no coward I just need to pray
And hope someday that I can find what I’m supposed to do
Before my life just fades into the blue

I look up to the sky at night / Praying for some kind of rest-bite
Hoping’ it’s all gonna be alright / Gonna Be ok
And I can live to fight another day

Bridge

I dream for a life up on the big screen
I dream for a life where I wrote the main scene
I dream for a column in a rap magazine
I dream for a life where I can just be seen

I dream.

The Clock’s Don’t Stop – Lyrics

This Rap was written to this Instrumental beat here on youtube:

Verse 1:

I never thought this time in my life I’d be in this position
but I gotta take a deep breath and make a big decision
‘cos I can’t go on fucking this up, being stuck in the mud
getting nowhere, sinking fast my brain is so tied up
in knots, and I can’t think straight the nights draw in
nightmares circling, constant reminiscing
about the days when I had a dream not a regret
mind wide open to lifes confetti
thinkin’ it was all rainbows and no rain was stupid
but until you been through shit you got no clue of it
but now im through with it, I’m at the end of my rope
and the answer ain’t dope, the answer is hope
gotta believe it will all turn around, ears to the ground
listen to whats about and never self-doubt
that’s a great message but it’s hard to do
when you’ve been beaten black and blue
and you don’t feel like you

Chorus

The sun has been covered up by the clouds for too long
It’s time to find out where I truly belong
‘cos the clock don’t stop for nobody, never will
so it’s up to me to hunt my destiny and make the kill

2nd Verse

Always seems to be grey skies, pre-meditated lies
surrounded by people I despise
gotta get wise and realise that I need friends I ain’t gotta disguise too
or explain myself too
spend so much energy on things that never materialize
how about you try these shoes on for size?
and maybe you will see what it’s like looking through a thinkers eyes
blinkers off, this is reality right
My heart keeps thumpin’ as my spirit keeps strugglin’
sometimes I literally cannot be fucked with
waking up everyday just to go to bed a failure
but writing keeps me sane it’s my one true saviour

Chorus

The sun has been covered up by the clouds for too long
It’s time to find out where I truly belong
‘cos the clock don’t stop for nobody, never will
so it’s up to me to hunt my destiny and make the kill

3rd verse

A tortured soul no I ain’t a tortured soul
I just have no idea which way I’m supposed to go
But if I stand in the middle of the road I’ll get hit from
both directions if truth be told
So fuck it, and fuck anyone who is lining up takin’ shots
I ain’t judging’ you so hold onto your rocks
this is my battle and I am gonna win it
this is my life and I’m gonna fulfill it
The suns coming out and the clouds are gonna disperse
and the rays of light will shine down on the earth
lighting up the pathway the road I must take
will be clear
No more room for mistakes….

The sun has been covered up by the clouds for too long
It’s time to find out where I truly belong
‘cos the clock don’t stop for nobody, never will
so it’s up to me to hunt my destiny and make the kill

Breath On Me

on the corner now
where you said you would
it’s empty
a ghost where you stood
and I carry on
the world seems so big tonight
I guess when you’re alone everything does
a bitter taste? not right now
it will grow on me
like you did somehow

Breath on me
it’s not that i can’t move on
but you can’t be replaced just by anyone
breath on me
this is so bad i know
‘cos the love we had
i need to let go of

my reflection is haunting me
as I gaze into the mirror
tryin’ to work out if i was the saint
or the sinner?
this rain is hitting so hard
it’s hard
tryin to cover up all these mental scars
is this what you wanted?
of course it is
it’s easier to walk away
than deal with today

Breath on me
it’s not that i can’t move on
but you can’t be replaced just by anyone
breath on me
this is so bad i know
‘cos the love we had
i need to let go of

Need a faster way to say goodbye
not a full song, what should I write?
anything to make me fall asleep
instead of staring at the space you used to be
I’ve done this before
but your sweet smell is lingering this time
maybe it’s because things are gonna be fine?
no don’t do that
I won’t do that but..

Breath on me
it’s not that i can’t move on
but you can’t be replaced just by anyone
breath on me
this is so bad i know
‘cos the love we had
I need to let go of

Is This Really The End?

They say time is a healer but it hasn’t healed me
They say love is blind and I can still see
And here I sit all alone once more
Tired and confused like I was before
Never thought I’d go back to feeling like this
In the old days we could repair it with a kiss
But this is serious, well it is to me
‘cos I can’t imagine living my life without G
What changed? were you distracted by the lights?
Single life, other guys in your sights?
I don’t know what it is but it sure does hurt
And you got me doubting the man inside this shirt
I gave you love, held you when you fell
Remember those times when you were going through hell?
Family issues that you couldn’t resolve
I came to pick you up and the problem dissolved
You stayed a few nights and everything was tight
Gave you a cuddle, said it would be alright
But the past is the past I’m looking to the future
I agree with you, being single seems to suit ya

Chorus

Is this really the end
Have we breathed our final breath
Is this really the end
You know I’ll love you to my death
Is this really the end
Girl we been through so much
Is this really the end
How I long for your touch

October 31st 2001
We shared our first kiss in front of everyone
We’d been on dates but hadn’t taken the step
that’s a memory that in my mind I’ve kept
That night at the flicks when I met your mum
She shook my hand, smiled, it had just begun
And from there it developed she grew fonder of me
‘til the day she found out about the pregnancy
Love turned to hate, I received all the blame
I felt alone, all alone feeling pain
Nowhere to turn I had made a mistake
My emotional state had me mentally at stake
I lost a few stone, and I lost you
But being apart my heart grew for you
I sent you flowers to make you realise
That I was there for you it’s you I idolised
The first day back at school you came up to me
I was nervous as hell but a hug settled me
Remember all this? I sure do
‘cos it means a lot to me, does it mean anything to you?

Chorus
As the days went by we would speak more and more
And you had feelings for me that you were trying to ignore
You felt like I hurt you
I didn’t mean to you
Told your close friends that I had deserted you
Your heart holds the truth, I tried to be there
I texted you everyday telling you that I cared
The silence was deadly but we patched things up
The attraction was too great just to give it up
Now tell me something did we survive on just lust?
‘cos I loved you, making you happy was a must
So many questions that need to be addressed
I need to know the truth, I won’t settle for nothing less
I can’t settle for nothing less

Is this really the end?
Time went so fast
Is this really the end
Are we a part of the past?

Your Safety Net

reach out and touch my hand
im here to save you
wipe away the tears in your eyes
I won’t betray you

your heart is broke, cracks so deep
I’ll stay until you fall asleep
but  promise me one thing, that when you awake
you will take back the life
that he did forsake

‘cos I’ll be your safety net
i’ll make it easy for you to forget
when it rains it pours, when your heart wants more
when you know what you want to live for
i’ll be your safety net

I’ve loved you for so long now
but you just didn’t see
I didn’t want to say
because you said you were happy

but I saw the scars, the pain
it was written on your face
when I tried talkin’ to you
your mind? in some other place
but i just want you to know that..

i’ll be your safety net
i’ll make it easy for you to forget
when it rains it pours, when your heart wants more
when you know what you want to live for
i’ll be your safety net

Tough Love – Lyrics

Tough Love (Written By C.Ackerley 2006)
Category: Music

Things going on in my mind all the time
Can’t believe it’s over and i can’t call you mine
Wish I could turn back the clock and just chill with you again
Friends and lovers just like how it began
Always smiling and laughing, relaxed with each other
Will I get that with someone else i wonder
Your hard to replace no one can take your space
they may have the body but they don’t have your face
Walking all alone with this feeling of pain
The way I shouted at you, so sorry, so ashamed
baby you’re the best,
I failed in my quest to make you stand above the rest feeling happiest

(chorus)

but it’s over now
I’m all burnt out
feelings of the past come back and haunt me now
thought I was ready to give you exactly what you need
but it’s tough love, it’s just tough love

People tell me I should try to move on with my life
but being young free and single has come at a high price
twice, my hearts suffered, but maybe I’m to blame
Maybe I’m too insecure for this love game
see couples hand in hand, smiles on their face
I look at them with envy ‘cos I wanna switch places
Just wanna feel like I’m part of the deal
but you acted single and my hopes were killed
I can’t hold it against you though
you’re the prettiest thing I have ever seen and most guys think you are a dream
So I’ll walk away, head up high
knowing that i tried to make things alright
come on

(chorus)

Bridge

Look girl I enjoyed our time
I’m sorry for my mistakes that’s why i wrote this rhyme
but were two different people
I realise that now
you felt too much pressure so you wanted out
Thats fine go ahead, go and find out, what the worlds all about
you’re a single girl now
but we had something special, only I can see
Maybe in time you’ll agree with me

(Chorus)

A few weeks have passed now and still no word
Not a text or a call, nothing, i haven’t heard
What started with a kiss has ended with a hiss
You with someone else makes me feel physically sick
It’s better to have loved and lost or so I’m told
So I guess the time has come for me to act bold
Push it to the back of my mind
Walking around frontin’ like I’m happy but you don’t see whats behind
I use humour to mask it ‘cos I’m dying inside
Waiting for the day that this pain subsides
But i’m keep on going ’til i find my peace
Walking hand in hand with my angel on the beach

(chorus)